Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Day 33: Studious

As I've mentioned before on this blog, I'm a college student. I decided to pick Computer Science as the field of my studies, and this has proven to be a satisfying choice for me. I enjoy the content and how it relates to the world around me. I feel more in tune with technology and how programs work.

However, it's not all a magical fun ride. It requires a lot of work to be proficient and skilled in the field, and that work requires a lot of time. As a self-improving student with a part time job and quite a few hobbies, I find myself sometimes stacked for time.

Today, though, I decided to make a change. Instead of playing one of my various video games, I decided to take some time for my studies. A few sections of optional Calculus and the beginning of a C++ project later, I really felt more satisfied with my day. Rather than stressing and doing it at the last moment, I had the option of working ahead.

...And then I played video games.

Today, I worked to become more studious.

Daniel, of course.

Day 32: Self-Sufficient

Short one.

My recent encounters with my good friend that almost ended in calamity got me to think over the past few days. If this person and I were to have a similar falling out or confrontation and the result was more unfavorable, I'm not sure where that would leave me. They're very important to me and are one of my purest confidants and companions.

However, like all things in life, they're not permanent. Things happen, people grow apart, miles spring up between people. I realized I had been investing a lot of time into growing dependent on someone who simply isn't responsible for me.

So, today I tried to space myself from others and worked on being a more self-sustaining person. Though it was a bit lonely, I found that I was able to be just me with just myself to keep me company without going crazy.

Today, I grew more independent.

Daniel, of course.

Friday, February 1, 2013

Day 31: Fence Mending

Short post.

A more religious person might say that to err is human, to forgive divine. Though I disagree with some of the sentiment and especially the self-righteousness of the forgiver, the statement does feel particularly good.

As my previous post mentioned, I was wounded, gravely. However, there's a reason they're in my inner circle: they belong there. I won't let myself exclude one of the most trusted people in my life for the sake of feeling vengeful or arbirtrary.

Today, I learned better to forgive.

Daniel, of course.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Day 30: Endurance

Today, I was injured.

It wasn't by a nasty fall or accident, nor by an exercise gone too far, nor anything else of the physical sort. This sort was emotional.

Someone very close to me said some very, very hurtful things and left me feeling depleted. When I returned home, I thought for a long time how I would like to get even, to return fire, to make myself feel like I had avenged the injustice levied against me.

...But then I didn't. There's a reason they're close to me and earned a place among my favorite people, as one of my closest compatriots. I relaxed and stared at the ceiling for a while. A text message filled with all of my vitriol and venom went unsent and was deleted.

It's easy to lose control when faced with some adversity, but it's much harder to maintain that same control.

Today, I kept my cool and kept my friendship.

Daniel, of course.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Day 29: More Weight

Not literally.

This post is just confirming that I've pushed myself further in my cardiovascular and abdominal exercise routine, increasing the time/resistance I do on elliptical and the number of reps I do with ab exercises.

Today, I stepped my exercise up another level.

Daniel, of course.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Day 28: The Trenchs

Beat, so another short post. (Apologies!)

Today, as last post suggested, was first day of class. Today was the easiest day of class for many people, people who spent their class periods going over their respective syllabuses and perhaps taking very preliminary notes.

However, this day is one of the roughest of the year for me. I work on campus as a computer technician tasked with fixing student computers when they're brought into the office. Though I am compensated with a decent pay and can accrue twenty hours of work a week, the beginning of semesters are inevitably laden with people with various problems, whether they be hardware, software, updates, or inability to connect to the network.

Days like this normally plow me over and leave me with little-to-no energy by the end of my day. Today, though, I decided to face the event with a greater resolve. I drew upon some latent well of energy and decided that I wouldn't let the day be a bully of me. Not only did I conquer my four hours of class and five hours of work, I managed enough energy to attend the gym and aid a friend in need.

Today, I found a deeper reserve of energy and, well, manned up.

Daniel, of course.

Day 27: March, To Battle!

Shorty again.

Tomorrow begins another semester!

It's always a huge adjustment for me to get back into the swing of things for semesters. Inevitably, I will have an altered sleep schedule, a general lack of fucks to give, and take a while to readjust to the student life.

However, I decided this semester would be different. I purchased all the necessary supplies, aligned myself to a proper sleep schedule, and planned out my daily schedule to a tee, including meals, classes, work time, gym, and a lovely 2 hour period for an inevitably desired nap.

Today, I got myself prepared (and pumped) for tomorrow.

Daniel, of course.